Devistation

Well, the day could have gone better that's for sure. I talked with my man for awhile this evening about how much I truly wanted to know beyond a doubt that he loved me and wanted me. I didn't get the enthusiastic answers that I wanted to and I am still fairly confused under it all. Has forced me to see how much stress I really am under right now.

I really don't know what to do. Here I am a recoveing junkie/whore, a mommy, a divorcee, and feeling rather hopless.

If all I really have to offer the world is my body then they can have it I do not wish to pursue life if it is to have no goal............I only wish I could find that goal out there somwhere

In the begining

I have no idea what has possessed me to start this......but thought I would give it a try ;)

Happy 4/20 btw everyone!! Although I am not much of a pot smoker I support the legalization of it! I went to Boulder for my usual once a week bs and saw SO many people getting high! It was awesome! Even better was Officer Ramos not doin a damn thing about it........I love this town.

I was wishing I did smoke pot once I got home as I freekin crashed on my bike and skinned myself up pretty good....oops.

Now I'm just sitting here killing time till I have to go get my lil man and trying to decide what naughty pics to do next.....sadly I am drawing a blank.........we shall see later then huh?